Hello 2013!
Pity that world didn't end.
I was quite looking forward to the experience, really. Dodging death would have been a fascinating adventure.
To be very honest, 2012 wasn't the best year of my life. It seemed to go so fast! It didn't look like a year, though. I guess that might be because I was studying for tests, doing the ton of work that the teachers label as homework and struggling to maintain friendships.
Making a new friend is very easy, but MAINTAINING friendships is hard. Because there are all these conflicts and stuff, which makes it hard to maintain it.
It's been a rough year. Academically, I've survived. But emotionally, there have been breakdowns due to stress, fights and trying to grasp the remnants of an old friendship (hey, it sounds rather weird). Yeah, I've shed tears - in frustration, in anger, in fear, in grief.
Oh, mock at me if you think a fifteen-year-old girl is trying to talk like an adult but I don't bother anymore. No one even reads my blog - they say they will check it out, but no one ever does take me seriously.
This is what frustrates me the most. You ask me favors, you take help from me but you don't understand me. It's sickening. When I get mad, it's like a comedy show to some people (like a certain friend whose name I WILL not mention) when I cry, it's like I've gone completely off my head, when I laugh, everyone's like, "Oh gosh, that's a witch's laugh."
I'm not good-looking, I don't swear, I don't wear makeup, I like reading books and writing anywhere I can, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm also a human being. My insecurities might seem childish to most people but I do admit I'm insecure. I can't help getting jealous, I can't help getting frustrated, I can't help feeling that no one cares for me in this world - this is what I call as my insecurities!
Now, moving onto 2013.
I don't know how this year is going to turn out to be - will it be exciting (in a good way) as the last? I really don't know. I don't want my life to be monotonous. I want it to be a spontaneous adventure - where you can meet new people, places, learn more, be healthy and happy, that's what I want.
As for new year's resolutions, I just want to be perfectly all right and survive like 2012.
And also, pass with amazing grades.
And, repair my bicycle.
And... ah, it's a long list.
For now, I'll say goodbye. :)
I was quite looking forward to the experience, really. Dodging death would have been a fascinating adventure.
To be very honest, 2012 wasn't the best year of my life. It seemed to go so fast! It didn't look like a year, though. I guess that might be because I was studying for tests, doing the ton of work that the teachers label as homework and struggling to maintain friendships.
Making a new friend is very easy, but MAINTAINING friendships is hard. Because there are all these conflicts and stuff, which makes it hard to maintain it.
It's been a rough year. Academically, I've survived. But emotionally, there have been breakdowns due to stress, fights and trying to grasp the remnants of an old friendship (hey, it sounds rather weird). Yeah, I've shed tears - in frustration, in anger, in fear, in grief.
Oh, mock at me if you think a fifteen-year-old girl is trying to talk like an adult but I don't bother anymore. No one even reads my blog - they say they will check it out, but no one ever does take me seriously.
This is what frustrates me the most. You ask me favors, you take help from me but you don't understand me. It's sickening. When I get mad, it's like a comedy show to some people (like a certain friend whose name I WILL not mention) when I cry, it's like I've gone completely off my head, when I laugh, everyone's like, "Oh gosh, that's a witch's laugh."
I'm not good-looking, I don't swear, I don't wear makeup, I like reading books and writing anywhere I can, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm also a human being. My insecurities might seem childish to most people but I do admit I'm insecure. I can't help getting jealous, I can't help getting frustrated, I can't help feeling that no one cares for me in this world - this is what I call as my insecurities!
Now, moving onto 2013.
I don't know how this year is going to turn out to be - will it be exciting (in a good way) as the last? I really don't know. I don't want my life to be monotonous. I want it to be a spontaneous adventure - where you can meet new people, places, learn more, be healthy and happy, that's what I want.
As for new year's resolutions, I just want to be perfectly all right and survive like 2012.
And also, pass with amazing grades.
And, repair my bicycle.
And... ah, it's a long list.
For now, I'll say goodbye. :)
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