Demons

Your looks aren't angelic,
Yet, you seem happy, not tragic;
You're street-smart,
But not as brilliant as Einstein; 

There is nothing,
Particularly dark about you;
I see you wake up,
I see you live your life; 

But I do not see your demons,
Clawing your insides,
Nagging you to do things,
Which will harm you; 

The room's dark, 

You're all alone,
Protected from the cold,
Unprotected from your inner monsters; 

They come one after the other, 

Slowly growing  more vicious;
The sad part is,
You cannot stop them; 

First comes fear, 

A cold feeling in your heart, 

Colder than the weather;

Your fear is rejection,
Rejection from your family,
Rejection from your peers; 

Second arrives jealousy,
The most satanic of your demons;
You start envying everyone,
Including the ones you love; 

Then, hatred seeps in,
A burning intense feeling,
Which makes you feel disgusted,
About everything in your life; 

But the worst isn't over yet; 

The sadness that comes,
It cannot be stopped;
You start crying silently,
Trying not to make a noise,
But trying to let go of your grief; 

A while later,
The morning sunlight seeps in,
The alarm clock jarringly rings,
Wrenching you apart from,
Your inner demons, 

And bringing you back to your normal disposition; 

 I'm sure all of us have these problems. I, for one, do have this problem. In front of everyone, I'm this bright, perky, geeky girl. But when I'm alone? I start thinking that almost everyone in this world hates my guts for God-knows-what reason - including my parents, best friends, relatives and even the neighbours who live next door. 

Honestly. It's crazy. 

But this self-hatred drama has lessened a lot over the years. I've learnt to live with the fact that not everyone is in love with me and I should stop wallowing in grief about it. So what if people hate me? I love myself and that makes up for it! I've decided to focus my energy towards things I love - like writing, 

Anyhow, please let me know of your views in the comments section! Don't keep that inner turmoil within you. Let out your feelings, tell me! I'm not just a random blogger. I love to listen to people!