A Letter Of Gratitution
Dear God (or any other superior being that presides over our lives),
Hi there.
I know, a lot of people out there doubt the fact that You exist. I know, a lot of people out there apparently know that You don't exist (because there's no 'scientific proof' or maybe because they want to sound cool because come on, haters are the 'new cool'.)
But, after years of being confused and befuddled whether You're really there or not, I've realized that You are there.
You are there within each and every one of us. You're there in the air, You're there in the water, You're there on the earth, You're everywhere.
You are infinite and You don't have a typical form. You have a strong presence though, which always, always helps people to move forward. You help people, not directly or magically, but with your mere presence. You're Hope, You're the Light that people find in a dark abyss. You're the Giver of positivity and it's only up to us to reach out to you.
I sound a bit preachy, but that's how... that is exactly how I identify you.
I don't know how to begin this letter or how to express how much grateful I am for leading the life I'm living now. But I'll still try.
A few years ago, I used to crib a lot.
I used to crib about the fact that I had braces. I used to crib about the fact that I had no 'real friends' as such. I used to crib a lot about the fact that I felt abandoned by my own family and friends.
I remember feeling sad about the fact that a lot of people in my class used to bully me in ways that still haunt me in my darkest dreams. I remember how there was a gaggle of girls who used to think I was hopelessly immature and who used to turn up their noses whenever I walked into the room, as if I was a gigantic skunk wearing a perfume of rotten eggs's aroma.
I remember how hurt I felt when these girls never really included me in their oh-so-exclusive-clique.
But everything's changed now.
I'm so fortunate, God. I'm so incredibly fortunate that I have got a fantastic group of friends. I'm so glad that I've gotten myself surrounded by people who're so incredibly positive and who make me feel like I'm on top of the world.
Friends are supposed to be some of the most important aspects of one's life. They're the ones who profoundly shape your ideologies, who influence you for the better or the worse.
I'm so thankful. I'm so incredibly thankful that I ended up with friends who are strong, determined, hardworking and brilliantly funny individuals. They are some of the most positive influences on me, God. They really are.
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Alongside my friends, I'm really grateful to have my family.
I know, I wasn't raised in a typical parent house but I think I've been raised pretty decently well. I know, I've lived all my life with old people and parents aren't really around.
But I'm ridiculously happy that I've had the privilege to be raised in the house I was raised. I'm happy that I ended up being raised by my grandparents, who've taught me all the things that I like the best about myself.
I'm glad that I got some of the best, coolest and the most encouraging parents ever because without them, I wouldn't have been as open as I am now. They believed in me, they let me pursue the things that I loved and they let me choose the way I want my life to be.
I'm also, especially grateful to my uncle, aunt and my two little cousins. My uncle and aunt are the realest people you'll ever find. They never praise me unnecessarily, instead they decide to portray the most realistic, truest pictures ever. It's like they're mirrors - they show you the world like it is.
As for my two little cousins? I really care about them. They're highly mischievous but they're the cutest darlings ever.
Thanks, God.
Thank you so much.
Sure, I don't have a lot of things like the typical definition of beauty or shiz like that, but the thing is, I'm really happy that I've got the fortune to be surrounded myself by such amazing, positive people at an early age.
I know, I sound really sappy and stuff, but I (as I always do) want to thank you for giving me the people who I love more than I love myself.
I'd fight for protecting them. I'd die for protecting them all.
Thank you so much.
Stay awesome as ever,
Much love,
Archie
I can't say I'm a religious person, but I do believe that He exists in some way, and I love this thankful post because we all need to write one in our heads at least. You've just depicted to me the importance of friends, because lately I've realised that the people around you really are the dictators of your mood - they shouldn't be but they are. I'm glad you found a lovely group of friends. And I reckon we should all be thankful for our family that will never leave us alone.
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-M
The Life of Little Me
Hi M!
DeleteIt's highly subjective, you know. Some people strongly believe that God exists, some blatantly don't and some are midway. As long as everyone's free to follow what they choose and they don't impose their views negatively, it's all right.
Thanks so much for tagging me in the TMI tag! :)
Stay awesome as ever,
Much love,
Archie <3
Hey, I am not really a hater, but I am going through a phase where I'm doubting His existence. I really want you to see my point of view.
ReplyDeleteYou see, I was a big believer once. There were so many times in life, when I used to end up in situations where I didn't know what to do. My next move usually was sitting quietly and talking to God. I had this conversation in my head and I imagined a supreme being who knows the answer to everything helping me out. That was my way of asserting His existence.
But almost two or more years ago I realized that I was staging the whole conversation in my head. It was ME talking to ME after all. Which led me to doubt His existence. That and several unfortunate events that are best left unsaid.
On top of that, I had this raging fear that by doubting His existence, I might be offending Him and in case it was actually HIM helping me out, He might stop if He thought I was ungrateful.
It's not easy suddenly doubting something you wholeheartedly believed in once. Something that was helping you every day.
For far too long I've been searching for an answer and then I finally decided there need not be one. I can choose to believe in Him or not. It's my own choice like everyone else's.
And I haven't made the choice. Yet.
But so many good things have happened lately, it's almost like gasping for fresh air after a period of being submerged in dark waters. And I find myself thanking God or the voice in my head like I said over and over again.
And your letter touched me so deeply, I cannot express in words what it meant to me. It's like reading my own feelings. I am indeed grateful. For everything that has happened. And if God is the person I'm supposed to thank, then yes, I will.
Your letter has tipped the scale. And I'm heavily bending towards "Yes, He exists"
I am afraid to make the choice. I'm afraid of committing to anything. Does that make me a bad person?
I'm sorry if this was way too long. AND if it made no sense. But this letter hit a part of me that's usually unaffected and closed. Thankyou for writing this. I am sure if He exists, He's smiling at you and showering you with love and blessings for being a grateful and nice person.
Love,
Saee
Hi Saee,
DeleteThanks so much, Saee! But I don't think I'm that great a person. Sometimes I can be really mean, hahaha! :P
Jokes apart, no, this was not long at all!
In fact, I'm GLAD that you actually voiced out your own opinions because everyone, at some shitty point of their lives, goes through what you go through.
It's perfectly all right that you were doubtful at a certain point of time. Trust me, I was pretty doubtful too.
But ultimately, God - I think - is the ultimate form of hope and encouragement. I don't mean to preach or anything, but it actually feels liberating when you thank Him (or anyone, for that matter). More than liberating, you feel nice from within. You feel completely clean.
I don't think that you're a bad person at all. I think you're someone who wants to make an informed, wise choice. And sometimes, we HAVE to take TIME before coming to a certain conclusion!
Stay awesome as ever,
Much love,
Archie
P.S., Your comment wasn't way too long. In fact, I'm really happy that I could (or tried to, actually! :) ) help you out.
Hey! I really liked the way you wrote this post.
ReplyDeleteCongrats :)
Adriana Gil - makemereadmoreofthis.blogspot.pt
Haha, thank you so much, Adriana! I will surely check out your blog!
DeleteStay awesome as ever,
Much love,
Archie <3
Thank you so much, Archie! :)
DeleteI love your blog as well!
And thank you for the nomination!
That's really sweet of you :)
XO,
Adriana :)