Bittersweet

It's one of those evenings.

You are lying on your couch, utterly bored. You are staring at the patterns on the window made by the rain pouring outside. There's nothing else you can do right now, except stare. 

You have no will whatsoever to get up and reorganize your desk. You have no desire to even look at your phone and immerse yourself in the deliciously addictive cyber world. There is nothing you really want to do except lie on that couch of yours and start off with your favourite past-time: 

Thinking. 

You start off pondering over all the grand plans that you had formulated and think about how everything just ended up dramatically opposite to what you had imagined. You think about how crazy you used to be, so many years ago, and you think about how you have grown so much as a person. 

Then gradually, you start thinking about all the people you've encountered in your life. 

You think about your doting parents, how they mollycoddled you in your childhood. You think about your wild siblings and cousins, with whom you played with, all the time. You think about your crushes and you reminisce the delightfully sugary sweet imaginations that you had about them. Then slowly, your thoughts drift towards all the biting bullies, the enemies you made, with whom you never jelled. 

And then, your thoughts drift off to that person. 

There was a time when you used to think that the world began and ended with that person. There was a time when you thought you could share anything, absolutely anything with that individual. There was a time when that person was one of the best parts of your entire life.

Then, you don't know what happened but your equation with that person changed. 

Was it a silly argument that escalated into a gigantic fight? Or was it just Time playing its hand that wrenched you apart from one another? 

It's been so long since you thought about that person. You don't remember the details, like birthdays or favourite colours. Oh, and you even need to think a bit hard to even recollect how they looked like. But... 

You remember how strong your relationship was. You remember exactly how much you cared about that person and you remember that you were willing to do anything, absolutely anything for that person. 

Yet, you don't remember how things ended between the two of you. 

All of a sudden, you sit up straight on your couch. There's a sudden spark lit within you. Your mind's now buzzing with grand ideas of reconciliations and meet ups. 

Instantaneously, you pick up your phone. With eagerness akin to that of a child during Christmas, you tap the blue Facebook app button and type out that person's name.

There! 

You see that person - looking completely fresh and content. The Facebook profile showcases wonderful pictures of that person with family, friends set against exotic locations as backgrounds. That person's Facebook statuses suddenly remind you of how funny, how absolutely witty he/she was. 

You are about to tap the 'Send Friend Request' option when suddenly, a nagging thought enters your mind, a thought that directly addresses that person:

Why am I even bothering with this? It's not like I can waltz into your life and pretend that everything is hunky-dory when it clearly isn't! 

With a loud sigh, you press the lock button on your phone and throw it aside. All the sudden rush of energy that entered within you drains out quickly and all you are left with is a bittersweet mixture of nostalgic memories and hazy confusion. 

***

 Hello, dear reader! 

It's been a long time since I posted! Well, I have been very busy and un-creative - which is why I hardly posted here! 

The idea for this post came up two days ago, when I was thinking about two people that I had (for God knows what reason) stopped talking to. And on the same day, I was bugging one of my classmates with a really far-fetched scenario, to which he replied: 

I could literally text a random schoolmate, with whom I haven't talked to for 3-4 years and ask about his life I don't give a fuck about. That would be more interesting than this. 

Then all of a sudden, it clicked. 

Why not write about those people who you were really close to, at a point of time, and somehow, an incident happened (or nothing happened) which made you guys drift apart? 

Do you guys have such people in your lives too? 

Stay awesome as ever,

Much love,

Archie <3